Saturday, April 07, 2007
when im feeling depressed, i would have a fetish for rock/ heavy metal songs.
See..im like tuning in to FallOut Boy's This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race like every day. PLUS linkin' park & aerosmith.
yikkes.i think im going bonkers.
seriously i dont know what's happening to me.
im either too depressed till ive gone numb inside out.
or im not giving it a damn anymore.
im opting for the 2nd option.
well, anyway i just recalled an amusing coversation i had with wing like a few days ago..
i used the expression "wtf" and wing was like "WAHH! Soonli! i didnt know u so vulgar one leh!"
ermm.let's just say ive changed cuz it's now a co-ed environment.
it's co-ed, for goodness sake! i can't just go around muttering "wtf/wth/A**hole plus all the other hokkien "niceties" rite?
guys will think that im an AH LIAN or something.
im so adamant on maintaining my dignified and cool image.
HAHA!
im trying to be anti-social.
so that i can discard the horrible "peacock" birdy personality.
my aims for this week:
1) Do well for the tests.
2) Continue being anti-social since ppl assume tt im anti-social
3) Live in my own world. especially in class.
4) Be UN-enthusiastic. or else i'll give ppl a shock.
5) Quit Slacking. & Stoning.
6) Laugh more. Smile more. *to myself n to my close friends only.
7) Tolerate the irritants in my life. school life that is.
8) Be cool and mean. YAYY! i lurve being a meanie.
9) Find someone to irritate to lessen my depression.
10) Learn to love TJ again. Quit Harboring Thoughts of Flying to ACJC. That's Totally Impossible.
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